It may sound cliché, but 2011 was a year to remember. If you received our annual family newsletter you have heard some of these amazing things. I hope that it will eventually be a published book. Until that time, I’m sharing this more openly in my blog and any other avenues that God leads. Part 1 is about how writing became such an integral part of my DNA this year.
I started out 2011 trying to just take one day at a time with the uncertainty of my terminally ill mother’s fate hanging over me. I had made three trips back home in the 17 months since my mother’s stroke and was longing to see her again. In the midst of this waiting, I was also comforting Rosa, Pedro’s mother*, with the news of her mother’s passing. And then three weeks later, my mother suddenly passed away.
I was initially in shock as I felt certain that God had told me I would see my mother alive again. I didn’t understand how God could take my mother so suddenly. I returned home to St. Louis to handle my mother’s final arrangements and burial.
That painful trip ended up being such a blessing for me. I was able to speak at my mother’s memorial—something I never foresaw myself doing. My mother was mentally ill for pretty much all my life and so I wasn’t very close to her. Over the months preceding her death though, God was giving me glimpses of how I am like my mother in ways that I hadn’t seen before. The eulogy ended up being a beautiful tribute to my mother and a way I could share those things with her. It was incredibly healing for me. The revelations and healing were so significant to me that God laid it on my heart to start writing.
A few months later, my connection with New Life Ministries and Steven Arterburn, led to an interview about my experience. The interview was distributed nationally to supporters of the ministry. And so I continued to write. Shortly after that I was asked to join the team of devotional writers at my church. I was just getting used to the idea of being a ‘writer’ and I certainly never thought I’d write devotionals. But after prayer and thoughtful consideration, God gave me the confidence and His words to do it. I also took some writing classes over the summer and wrote a few short stories.
In the fall, I began to take my writing more seriously, started my blog and joined the Northwest Christian Writers Association. It was through this group that I heard about a story submission to a Christian publishing firm for stories of mother/child healing relationships. That led to the writing and submission of my first manuscript just over a month ago. That was a huge leap of faith—fingers crossed and praying.
So I started out 2011 with lots of uncertainty in my life around my mother’s passing. I ended 2011 with closure, wholeness and a new sense of purpose. God has given me a story and a desire to write it. That is pretty scary at times because it is a big commitment, but also because I didn’t see it coming. But isn’t that the way God does His best work? If I went down this road on my own, I’d want to take the credit for it. But since I know this is something that I couldn’t do on my own, I have to rely on Him. He is the author of my story and I’m blessed to collaborate with Him on making it known in whatever way He leads.
*Learn about my Spanish connection and who Pedro is in Part 2.
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