After turning my back on my Catholic faith as a youth, I had only stepped inside a Catholic church once or twice in my life, like for a funeral. The church didn’t seem relevant to me. It seemed rote—reciting pre-scripted prayers and responses.
However, when I took Pedro, a Spanish exchange student who lived with us, to an afternoon mass in Seattle three years ago, I witnessed something I had never seen before in a Catholic Church (or was too young to notice). I witnessed people raising their hands in worship during hymns or at times of the rote responses. I saw genuine worship, expressed like I had only seen done in Protestant churches. It left a favorable impression of the Catholic Church on me and started to erase my leftover bias.
Six months later when Pedro’s grandmother died, I had a mass said for her (a common Catholic practice). I also had a mass said for my terminally ill mother. (If you don’t know what that is, think of it as a prayer service dedicated to someone you love). It was at that mass that God opened my eyes and ears to really being in tune with His voice.
Reawakening my Faith
According to Gary Thomas, author of “Spiritual Pathways”, we are uniquely wired in the ways in which we connect with God. His book describes ten ways: Naturalists, Sensates, Traditionalists, Ascetics, Activists, Caregivers, Enthuisasts, Contemplatives and Intellectuals.
After my experiences at this Catholic mass over 2 ½ years ago, I realized I was a contemplative. The defining characteristic of a contemplative is that they connect with God through adoration. So I started to attend mass and a weekly prayer service where I could devote quality time with God.
It was in these times of adoration that He was spiritually preparing me for my trip to Spain. He has given me a glimpse into the Catholic Church, that at first glance may seem like a strange thing—a Protestant attending mass. But I believe it is through these experiences, that He has uniquely prepared me to cross denominational barriers and connect with the people of Spain.
First Spanish Mass
Ever since these discoveries about myself, I have been looking forward to seeing the historic cathedrals of Spain and attending mass in a different setting and language. I desired to worship God alongside native speakers and feel God’s presence in this place and time. All of the pieces have been aligning for this part of my journey. I left Seattle spiritually ready and open to experiencing God in a new way.
I had a glimpse into that on my third day in Spain when I attended my first Spanish Catholic mass. It didn’t end up being in some grand historic cathedral like I envisioned. It was in an old neighborhood Catholic Church with Rosa by my side. I was pretty lost in the service, not understanding the words, but could generally follow along with the order of the mass. None of this prevented me from silently praying for the people of Spain or preparing my heart for this part of my journey. When the tears came, as I knew they would, Rosa was there with a comforting hand.
What’s Next?
This part of my journey is just beginning. I know I will visit other cathedrals in Spain—and hopefully another mass, as well as a Protestant church service. My days are long and filled with lots of activities. It has been hard to develop a routine and spiritual discipline here, but I would be missing out on why I believe God has called me for such a time as this if I didn’t respond to His invitation.
So I am ready physically, mentally and spiritually for this trip of a lifetime. I have been consciously and subconsciously preparing for it in stages for the last three years. I know God walks before me into this next phase of my journey. I am grateful for His pointing me in this direction and for the support and prayers of my friends and family.
~ This completes my “Road to Spain” blog series. My Spanish travel series starts with España Update 1 ~ The Longest Day. Adios and vaya con Dios! (So long and go with God.)
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