As Mother’s Day approaches this year I’ve noticed a bit of longing for the times when my kids were young and family plans were made to do something special to celebrate the day. If something wasn’t planned, you could always count on the school to assign students a Mother’s Day project.
I’ve still got my children’s Mother’s Day projects filed away with their school papers and art projects. Some have made their way into my scrapbooks and another hangs in my office as a reminder of one of those cherished memories.
An Unlikely Nomination
Many years ago one of those Mother’s Day projects was a major wake-up call for me. I got to see myself through the eyes of my 11-year-old son, and I didn’t like what I saw.
Each student was given an assignment to write a Mother-of-the-Year nomination for their parent. It was a good writing assignment for a 4th grader—learning how to structure a one-page paper.
It started out with the three reasons for my nomination. Then there was a paragraph for each reason to give more background and details. The final paragraph was a summary of the nomination.
My son started out by nominating me because “she has a great personality, works hard for her job, and lastly she is dedicated to the family.” It warmed my heart—until I reached the paragraph about my work. That was when my son’s words hit a nerve.
“My mother stays up late to keep working most of the time. Normally, it is 2 AM before she goes to bed. Also there are times where I don’t see my mom until the next morning because she stayed at work. She does this just to bring money into the family. If she didn’t have to bring in money then she wouldn’t do these things.”
Hard work is one thing, but I was modeling to my son that working long hours into the night and not seeing him, was acceptable behavior—all for a paycheck. That may seem innocuous to many people in these days of high tech and high stress jobs. But his truth about my work habits and unconscious belief system was a glaring red flag.
I didn’t like the message I was sending my son.
The bigger story behind this was that I was demoted from my job a few months earlier. That demotion was the catalyst that got me into recovery and out of denial about my work addiction.
By the time I received my son’s Mother’s Day gift, I was making healthy changes in my life and working less hours. However, the damage had been done. My son already saw the result. Thankfully, all of this led to getting more balance in my life and by the next year, I took a leap of faith and left my job.
A New Nomination
I never shared with my son the impact his words had on me. He was too young to understand. Now that he is 24 and working in a job that he loves, maybe it is time that we have that talk.
Over the years since leaving that job, my kids have been very much aware of my recovery journey and passion for emotional and spiritual healing. Back in 2004 when he nominated me for Mother-of-the-Year, I’m sure I didn’t feel very worthy.
The joy of Mother’s Day with my sons, May 2000.
I wonder what he would say now—what either of my son’s would say if they could nominate me now. I still don’t feel very worthy of something like that. However, I know that I’ve made a difference in their lives. While I haven’t been a traditional homemaker type mother, they know that I love them.
And like I did when I left that job over a decade ago, I’ve modeled something I’m much more proud of—leaning on God. The scripture that helped me through that difficult time is still one of my favorite life verses.
“Trust in the Lord with all your heart; do not depend on your own understanding, seek His will in all you do, and He will direct your paths.” Proverbs 3:5-6, NIV
While my son’s Mother’s Day gift that year didn’t initially feel like a gift, it turned out to be one of the most memorable I’ve ever had. The timing and his words were perfectly orchestrated by God to get my attention and help me to shift my priorities and grow my faith.
What are you modeling to your kids this Mother’s Day? Are you worthy of The Nomination?
Making Me Bold 