It was late afternoon and the view was magnificent from my window seat high above Salt Lake City on route to my home in Seattle. The sun was setting, the snow covered the mountains, and the lake was a perfect skating rink below. Out of the silence I heard, “I want you to move to Montana and be with Kelly.” God had spoken.
You see, Kelly is my precious daughter. She had spent many a summer on her aunt and uncle’s ranch in Eastern Montana, and she loved it there. It was a safe, peaceful place for her. As Kelly started high school in Seattle, there were many struggles and troubles, both at school and home. She desperately wanted to move to Montana, and her aunt and uncle graciously accepted her into their home.
Choosing the Hard Road
During 11th grade, Kelly had her tonsils out and I went to nurse her back to health. It was ripping my heart out. I knew I was missing her life. But, I had a job, and a home, and my friends, and bills, and, and … that’s when God spoke. I debated with Him. My main concern was how I would support us. Sidney is a small town. Where in the world would I work? God is God, and, of course, He had the answer. He dropped into my mind “the school.” “Oh”, I thought, “the school—that’s a great idea.” By the time I landed in Seattle I had decided to give notice at my job of six years, rent my home out, and move. I was going to spend my daughter’s senior year with her in Sidney, Montana!
I won’t pretend that everything was easy, it certainly wasn’t. I had not been mom for the last two years and I surely couldn’t tell her what to do and not do now. But I could be available, available to: live with her in our own place, go to every single Varsity Volleyball game to cheer her on, (even the games that were four hours away in blizzard snow storms), I could be there as a proud parent to take pictures at the Senior Prom, go out to dinner with her, do each other’s hair, laugh at goofy movies, ride horses with her, take pictures, and make every holiday special.
The Fruit of Her Labor
One thing my daughter knew; I loved her. She was more important than my job, my friends, my home, my money, or my comfort.
I did work at the schools. I was a sub almost every day. It didn’t pay a lot, but we got by. We had arguments, and I cried a lot. I found myself grinding my teeth, had heart palpitations, and missed my friends tremendously. But, what I got in return was a relationship with my daughter that will last into eternity. We have a love and a bond that, with God’s grace, will weather any storm. She trusts me, and I believe in her. God redeemed what might have been lost forever. I am so grateful for that still small voice that said “go”, and that I went.
I don’t know what obstacle is holding you back from the relationship God wants you to have with someone you love. But, I do know He wants to redeem it, to restore it, and make it flourish.
I live back in Seattle now, my daughter and I visit each other, we are traveling buddies, and talk often. Saying “yes” to Montana was “the best thing I’ve ever done!”
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Linda Reed is a Licensed Mental Health Counselor and Certified Professional Coach. Her education, 19 years of experience, and her own healing journey give her empathy, compassion, and insight with her clients. Well-known for her energy and professionalism, Linda’s workshops inspire people with tools that give hope to life. Topics include difficult conversations and setting limits with love. For more information about Linda, check out lindajreed.com or contact her at stepbystepwithlindareed@gmail.com.
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Note from Ardis ~ Thank you Linda for sharing your beautiful story of obedience and restoration as you took risks and invested in your daughter. I have been blessed by your walk of faith.
I’m still slowly making progress on my memoir for NaNoWriMo. Don’t miss a surprise guest blogger lined up for Thanksgiving Day!